Don't waste your time or time will waste you. By @sperfys

By Federica Martini

Don't waste your time or time will waste you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G_sBOsh-vyI Don't waste your time or time will waste you...Probably there's no better piece of lyric to describehow I feel at the moment.To be completely honest I'm surprised by my bad results, I thought I was following all theprocedures perfectly: I woke up at 6 am everyday to start working earlier, I wrote a daily planeveryday, and I really felt energized and in the right place. But at the end every piece of work that Iproduced wasn't good enough, and it really pisses me off. But what pisses me off the most is thefact that what I do is the reflection of who I am, and at the moment I look like a little arrogant lazyfucker who doesn't give a shit. And guess what...I'm not! But I get it, I need to stop relying on ONEgood idea and wait for the next big inspiration from another planet.I need to stop blaming the whole world if something i do it's not good enough, I need to stopbelieving that I'm the only one I can get advices from, I need to swallow down my anger and startagain, and again, until I get it right. The last thing I want is to wake up every morning for the rest ofmy life and see that arrogant lazy fucker in the mirror all over again.These last months have been like a continuous self challenging, there are so many things I wasscared of, and I'm not anymore, several times it's been harder than I ever expected, but it's finebecause I'm on my way to what I always wanted.I've been lucky, I've been given a chance, and to be honest I really believe to deserve it, but at thesame time it doesn't take a big effort to screw it all up or to not make the best out of it. I can't letthis happen, for all the sacrifices I've done, my family have done, for all the people who believe inme and for the person I want to be.I'm ready for the final sprint!