By Holly Thomas

 

This place is bullshit

 

This place is bullshit.


That’s what I really want to say.

But I will bite my tongue,

Because I still want to stay.

 

 

Today you nearly beat me,

The first day that I cried


SCA has got me so confused,

Don’t know how I feel inside.

 

No independent thought here:

Prodded, jabbed, made to move.

Why am I alone here?


Is it me or is it you?

 

 

Score down by eight points,


But that’s bullshit too.


Had all the same campaigns in there,

And seven that were new.

 

I’m trying to be strong -


Show people that I’m brave

But today has really tested me

For real, I nearly caved.

 

So I went to the pub,


And got out of that space,


I downed a few pints,


Tears streaming down my face.

 

I refuse to lose,


I refuse to give in,

I refuse to retreat,

Or let SCA win.

 

Because you see:

I’ve fought harder before,


Been knocked down more times,

I’ve been on the floor,


 

It’s my turn for the sky.

Starting from tomorrow

I will work with no fear.

My day will soon come,

Holly Thomas was here.